Heart Of A Woman

Can you see the heart of a woman that cries a lot?
All the pain and struggle that keeps hitting that spot,
When she comes to you humbly to share her grief
Do you consider consoling without being a thief?

She opens her walls to allow you in
Thinking you were the man that might help her win
She thought the fire in her eyes would make you stay
But you took what you could and rolled away

Think about the crime you just commit,
She did nothing but tells you she wanted to quit
You showed her there was more to life than this shit
Then you did the same thing, hit and eventually quit!

How can you expect her to trust and love again?
And you wonder why she said she hates all men
You saw where she stood and you met her half way
But ran when she came to you and say,

"Sweetie, you know that I've been hurt
I always meet men that treat me like dirt
You came in my life when I was down and out,
Damn near suicidal, I was walking that route.

I opened up to you and started living this dream
You didn't ask, but you figured out my favorite ice-cream
When I needed someone you've been there for me
Now that I can walk again, and my vision is free

My heart has a place for you I want you in my life
I can see right now that I want to be your wife
I've been feeling this way and wanted you to know
That my feelings haven't stopped since they began to grow

I hope you feel the same, you haven't shown me otherwise
I believe everything you say, you haven't told me lies
When you touch me I melt and get on my knees
And give you satisfaction 'cause I'm not a tease.

So tell me you love me and you want to be here
When I leave home in the mornings I miss being there
I come home and hustle to make your meal
I know how to treat a king and how one should feel
We've been together for a while and I am in bliss
Far from where you met me, ready to cut my wrist
I didn't hide anything from you, I laid it all out
You stuck around and helped me to figure things out

So what do you say, gon' let us jump this broom?
I want us to be one so our love can fill this room
We can plan this together and make it our day
And use the "Masterpiece" song and dance the night away."

Another kick to her stomach, you delivered the last blow
How could you say nothing or that you don't know,
After you wined and dined her and dipped in the cookie jar
She even stayed home while you balled in her car

She even stopped working at your request
Why you didn't tell her that it was just sex
You had your damn skeletons, but kept your closet closed
That's how she didn't realize you mess with dicks.

You knew she was bruised and scarred for years
You knew when she cried that they weren't fake tears
You knew she was troubled when she sat with the knife,
To slice her wrist, to take her own life.

Though she had money she couldn't buy peace
You came as her savior and got in with ease
You knew she had loot 'cause you checked her shit
That's why you stuck around long enough to hit and quit.

She wasn't the reason your pops done turned you out
Sold your ass to dudes just to make some clout
You might still be pissed but that's not her fault
You could've opened up and shared what's in your heart

Now that she's broken, and so are you
She has moved on with a big "negro fuck you!"
You are still here back to square one
Lamenting her passing, 'cause her life is done.

First Time

Under the cool spotlight
I strolled until I was front and center
New faces, eager minds, attentive ears
All stared at me

Timidly, I took the mic and
Confirmed my virginity

"My first time here so you choose.
Tongue Bath or Lyrical Bliss?"

I opened my mouth to read the first word
The room fell quiet so everyone heard
And I proceeded, carefully annunciating my syllables
Slightly shaking, I focused my pupil so
I wouldn't miss a word
As I read

Reactionary sounds filled the room as audience members
Whispered things like damn, ooh, yeah...

Entertained and engaged,
Holding on to each word released from my lips
My indoor voice captivated them as I conveyed its sentiments

Too much to handle
Mouths hitting the floor
For a first time offender
Delivering his Lyrical Bliss

Hello Earth

Hello earth,
Forgive my Clouds for raining on you this morning,
But his bladder was full and had to go
Sometime later, I will send you my Sun
To help you clear the skies and make it blue again, for
The gray hanging over your head is not a good color for you
And I hate to see you frown

My Sun tells me he loves to visit you
He loves to come out and play with you,
Clouds is terrified of him
And runs like a wild horse in the open savannah
When Sun is around

He loves that he gets to embrace your uncovered skin
And watch you disrobe and show your nakedness
Sometimes he gets a little excited and wants to play more
He takes off a layer to become bigger, and warmer,
To watch some of your people take off another layer too,
Clouds retreat for cover and await his turn to play again.

The Sun loves to watch you pick those beautiful ripe fruits,
Those sweet succulent cherries, and plums, and strawberries,
And watch you bite into them,
Chewing slowly and swallowing smoothly

Earth,
My Sun has to visit the other side of the town,
Sleep well while Night is here
As tomorrow he has more plans for you
Night is only his jealous brother that takes over when he's gone.

Mental Essence

I think of you like a son in pain,
Like an eagle wounded with a busted wing,
The thought sits heavy on the deck of my mind,
Awaiting its release into your bosom

I think of your love like the pouring rain
Showering down on my hardened heart
Seeping through the cracks into my core
Seeking refuge like Napoleon Bonaparte

I think of your smile like the seven seas
Beautiful and wide, cool as spring breeze
It warms my face, removes my lines
My frown runs for cover when you’re near.

The joy you bring when you step in my space
Took me for a ride to less than common place
Your words dig deep, though true and sometimes harsh
Left my legs pending, the steps into your marsh.

I miss your touch, so tender and warm
Your eyes, intense, search my spirit for answers
Lips quiver to speak venom to my fear.
Tears force its way to sooth your hurt
And moistened my chapped lips placed on your face.

You let me in to share your space,
I pull you close so your heartbeat I could embrace
Massage your shoulders stroke the nape of your neck,
While you lie half-naked on the couch,
Body oils and the aroma of
Lit vanilla-scented candles
Fill the room while we drift off into
The land of the unknown.

No Back Talkin'

Bwoy, come 'ere!
Come 'ere now!
Who you tink you talkin' to?
I don't know who you tink you are
But it could neva be me you talking to like that.

After I work so hard to put clothes on yuh back
Mek sure you have food fi eat,
A warm place to lay your head at night
So you won't ketch pneumonia

You really talking back to me?

Mi neva have to tek you in
Afta you madda lef,
Long time now she gone
And I only year from har mussi once every few months
She sen' a likkle bit a money fi help out,
Can't even ketch, but mi affi mek it stretch
So di whole a oonu can eat

You fada,
Dat good fi nothing wukless bwoy
Weh call himself a man
Mi tell har fi nuh get mix up wid him,
But jus like how you nuh listen,
She ears hard same way
Now mi affi deal wid di crosses you bring

I couldn't bare fi stay here and watch oonu go hungry
Watch oonu live inna di ole bruk dung house
Wah him did lef all of you in
Out a di goodness a mi heart,
Mi a tek care a you an
You a talk back to mi?

You gwine bi just like him,
No good dutty foot bwoy,
Can't get a job an hold it,
Di tour bus wah dem gi him raggedy
And need a washin' like him dutty head

Dat man, you, dat man
Mi nuh see nuh diff'rance
You gwine tun good fi nutt'n just like him

You eye dem fine like fi him
You talk in tongues like him
You nu she much, like him

But dis is the last time
You back talk mi like him.

She Surrendered

After fighting all the time her wounds got deep
Hustling the streets and trying to earn her keep
Run-ins with the mafia and dudes in the street
Far from where she was, far from being a sheep

A 9 on the hip, a 38 in her crotch
That's how she rolled 'cause things were getting too much
Lost a few battles 'cause she never liked to beef
But all that changed when she made homeboy eat leaves

Vultures of the night would walk up to her face
She'd brandish her piece so they could clear her space
There was always that one who was stupid and dumb
He got it that night when she blew out his ear drum

Locals and Feds searching homes and alleys
No sign of her 'cause she move to Mystique Valley
Two years on the run, then resurfaced in the heat
And found her name painted in a star in the street

She played their game and fought their fight
Didn't know shit would change on that cold winter night
With a bounty on her head, she was tired of the life
She walked into the precinct, laid out her guns and knives.

The chief had a vendetta and was searching real hard
Fired too detectives for pulling his card
She defended herself when she pulled her gun
But the dude that she shot was his only son

She surrendered.

Blinded

Love has no ears to hear no one's bullshit
It has no voice, but it calls who listens
It has no eyes to see your disfigurement
Nor does it have a mouth to critique the words you say.

Honey sweet when in heat
It makes you forget the time
You left your mate
To hook up with another dime

Money and glory covets its strength
You forget your offspring will need you at night
When you squat on the corner doing things just to pay your rent,
Then you're in a jail house, with a fat guy on your right.

Then you realize
Your life has no eyes, no ears, no voice,
Only a vision within, blinded by love.